let me sink

sometimes i wish i sleep and never wake up.

i know people will gasp and say "oh u shldn't say things like that."

but i am only saying what i am truly feeling... anyway i seldom voice this sentiment out. pple get huge reactions out of it. and i suspect they secretly enjoy dragging u into their holy crap and perhaps save your wrecked soul and deliever u from salvation. animated hand gestures flying around while trying to sprinkle some of their happiness on u, in a hope that u will absorb some of the love and feel less "sucidial".

but no, who is feeling sucidial? i'm not.

i hate people.
no, i'm scared of people.
they don't leave me alone.
i wish to slip away... silently... without a trace...
everything is nothing.
life is transcient.
happiness is short-lived.
and u die... die alone... (no matter how much riches or how many loved ones u have)
i wish to slip away... silently... alone...
and in case anybody feel compelled to provide a SOS helpline, i'm alright.
really...
just dwelling in the perpentual darkness of my sulk. (i will get out soon, i hope)
meanwhile, let me sink.
let me feel the pain...