chicken pox for the masses

i don't believe this...

i'm still in denial...

i am down with chicken pox yesterday. i made a trip to the doctor to confirm this (in other words, to let reality sink into my thick skull)

how i ever get infected, or by whom, the chicken pox virus (varicella zoster virus) remains a big mystery. but being the super spy that i pretended that i am, i managed to round up a few usual suspects.

Yesterday, with only 8 lesions on my body, i convinced myself it was just a mild case at that. However, i woke up this morning none the least thrilled at my discovery. i was literally unrecognizable. Lesions of at least 100 (i lost count) on my body. argh, there are some on my face too! (oh are those my tears?) and i'm not even sure i slept the previous nite, with the fever coming and going and giving me goggy brains and impaired vision. hence, more pimples. freakingly big ones. am so very traumatized. and sad. sad, cuz today was "supposed" to be a happy day for me as it was planned with retail therapy in the day with a perfect pal and an anime (tokyo babylon!) maranthon for the nite with a sweetie. and did i mention titbits to go along?

sigh... tough luck... timing is so perfect

itch is terrible. am going crazy. the bigger lesions are worse... they seek your attention every 20 secs of your already numbed mind and swollen body.

the worse part, i'm NOT supposed to scratch them... i thought maybe the least i cld do is perhaps caress them slightly... a comforting gesture i believe... (somebody stop me, pls. tie my hands. whatever)

oh boy, am so looking fwd to the next day...

God, pls give me the strength...

at least my body is producing anit-bodies against the virus... ohhh i shld be so thankful... highly likely i will never catch it again... (er, who wants?)

i'm a pill junkie now.

am required to pop 5 big pills per day to control the virus. oh yah, calamine/ menthol lotion is pretty good for easing the itch for a while, and leaves a nice pinkish-white trail on your body. i'm not complaining :)

well, last thought :

i guess nobody ever expects anything unpleasant to happen to themselves... (just like the london bombings... it was a rude shock and ppl are still traumatized by the whole incident)

well, to folks who never suffered the vicious onslaught of the chicken pox virus attack, a vaccination is good. saves u the pain and heartache, and perhaps the scars that might last a very long time.

peace.

on a night like this

on a night like this

where moonlight beams;

the dark knight in his glory

casts a shadow over me.

trees whisper in the wind

words of restlessness,

wearing souls thin.

on a night like this

in the summer heat;

our gazes meet

intertwine in space

lock in embrace.

my sweet prince

you know it's you.

but i shall never say

least it devalues

thus like spoken words do.

on a night like this

goodnite never ends

and parting hearts grieve.

such a night like this

fragile as can be.

the majesty of the night

swallows me up

and dwells in the abyss

of my beating heart.

Clover... in my hands

just got the manga "clover" by clamp!! all 4 volumes of it!! so delighted! the illustrations are so amazing!! i can stare at them forever :) gonna burn my weekends reading the manga and i can not get any happier! hah... i hope i'll know what to do or have other things to do after finishing the manga. maybe start on a new one or revisit "clover" again! (very insane, yes!)

Read more on the manga "Clover" on Wikipedia

Fairy Park does a great story on "Clover"

::clover::

"If you find a four-leaf clover,
It will bring happiness;

But don't tell anyone
Where its white flower blooms.
Or how many leaf-lets from its stem extend.

The four-leaved clover.

I only want your happiness, knowing
I can never be yours to share it."

at this moment, am listening to this uk band called "alpha". soft, melancholic music... mood music... very nice... their lst album "Come From Heaven" which was released a few years back.

come, wldn't u... and feel the mood...

with me...